Working out in the Real World: Post College Athletics


It's weird.


For most of you that I haven't followed me, let me give you an update on my life. I played Division 1 volleyball for 4 years out of my college career and no, it wasn't all enjoyable. During this time, I learned just about everything there is to know about working out and what my body can take. Here are a few of those things:

  • I have exercise induced Asthma
  • I will never in my life be able to do a single pull up
  • My legs are probably about 90% of my body weight... that's a lot
  • I have extremely weak ankles that still hurt when I move them the wrong way
  • My right shoulder is out of commission from anything strength inducing (post torn labrum struggles)
  • I have exercise anxiety and a little PTSD from physical fitness, following some bad times I had during college athletics

Ok enough about me... let me tell you about exercising post college athletics, and for those of you who did not play sports in college, take this as a (what it's like to exercise right after new years) type blog, because it gets pretty interesting!

So many people... like so many.

I did not make it a new years resolution to start working out. Not going to lie, it just happened to me. The end of 2017 was pretty rough and right when this happened, a $1 for one month of gym classes promotion just happened to show up in my inbox, so I took it thinking "why not".

That being said, every class I have taken has been filled to the MAX with people I almost couldn't comfortably work out because I was bumping arms with everyone. I'm hoping it will settle down in the next few weeks, even though I go at a popular class time since I still have work.

I feel a little intimidated

I have been going to TruFusion for the past few weeks, taking everything from cycling to pilates to barre classes. I honestly was pretty intimidated when I first started classes which was crazy to me... I used to be an amazing college athlete and now I get scared heading into a pilates class? Mostly because I have never done these exercises before, didn't know what to expect, wasn't going with anyone and honestly... I tower over every little skinny 100 pound girl that shows up... but there are a few guys that show up so that makes me feel a little better.

I might feel more comfortable when I've been taking more classes for a while, but now I just feel like the loner who's showing up with all the other new years resolutioners trying to prove themselves. 

But there's no reason I should be. Everyone is SO nice

When I tell you... I have met a new friend every time I've gone, I mean it. I literally feel like these people sense that I'm new or that there is something going on with me and they feel the need to talk to me. I've had so many people reach out saying "first time?", " have you done this before?", "are you excited for today?" and from there, we just hit it off until class starts. After class, we complain about how hard that was but how we still made it through and it's honestly... very therapeutic. 

I have ended up pretty much telling my life story to a couple different women and have bonded over so many different things I can't even begin to tell you. I even briefly told this one girl what I was going through currently and she commended me on how I look so great and happy and confident to be going through so much in my life right now. She even tracked me down after I had left the gym to give me a few words of advice and tell me she's here for me... we just met! Some might have called her crazy, but it literally made my entire day and I already want to pay it forward to someone else.

The workouts are a LOT harder than I expected

Ok enough about bonding, back to the workouts.

They're hard.

Not D1 volleyball conditioning hard, but they're a different type of hard. They're just as mentally and physically exhausting as my college sport, but it feels... different. These are workouts I'm just not used to and that is tough. I'm used to playing a sport to workout and specifically knowing what I need to accomplish from other workouts like conditioning and strength training. The goal was to be a better athlete. I'm also used to being told what to do and following those orders in hopes to achieve that. 

With these workouts, I get to make my own goals. I get to say to myself "I want better abs, slimmer thighs and skinny arms" and from there I can tailor my workout. I know exactly what I want to give more effort to, in order to achieve my goals, which makes it so much more enjoyable. 

That being said, I'm still not used to them and it's frustrating. I'm not used to these techniques, building these certain muscles, the cardio, none of it. It's not something my body is accustomed to so I need to get acquainted with it. I'm used to being the best at what I do, and now I blend in to a crowd of sweaty people trying to do the exact same thing as me; not better, we're not competing, we're just, there to do it and to make ourselves better. It will definitely take some getting used to, but for now, it feels good to not be in the spotlight for once.

I'm also not used to all this peace and balance and calming and namaste crap... I'm sweaty, breathing hard, feeling like passing out and my eyelashes are falling off, this isn't peaceful. 

But wait... I have to pay money for this?

^^^something every college student says post graduation about EVERYTHING. I haven't felt the real effect of it yet because the special I used was $1 for one month of unlimited classes. However, once that expires, it will be $100 for unlimited classes.... WHAT. I'm about to pay money, to make myself exhausted, sore, sweaty and to ruin my hair... I don't know how I feel about that quite yet. 

It's probably pretty good for me right now

It's definitely strange going from the mindset of "I'm working out to be a better athlete" to "I'm working out to be a better me", but it's a weight lifted off my chest to know that I finally have control over my body. I'm no longer a machine being used for someone else's gain, I'm a human being and I'm doing this for me. It feels sort of like my blog does, that I finally have something for me and that is a great feeling.


As much as I love going to these classes some days, I'm honestly not sure if I can keep this up. I've stressed myself to the max filming every weekend, and editing every day after work that normally, I wouldn't have time for this. The only reason I did this for the past few weeks was because I took a break and didn't have anything to edit, post, or anything to do for my blog or Youtube channel. I want to start filming again soon, and maybe I'll stick to one video a week to limit my work load, but even that can take up so much time.

I do have more time for myself now, so I might be able to squeeze in more classes than I think, but maybe I just need take a step back and figure out what is really important. My blog and Youtube channel are everything to me. I've worked so hard to try to get to the quality that I want to be at, that I can't turn back now and don't want to turn back now. However, I do want to limit the stress I have in my life at least for a little bit, and even though it's fun, it can still be stressful.

I'm at a point in my life where I have no idea what I'm doing. I have no idea where I'm going to live in a few weeks, no idea where my job is going, no idea where my Youtube is going, and I really just don't understand a lot of things anymore. My life has been turned upside down and I need to figure out all these little technical things before I can figure out where my passion is going. Unfortunately, that takes priority.

So will I stick with the working out every day after work? Maybe, maybe not. I do like the idea of getting new workout clothes, but if I have to choose between that and reviewing new Sephora products... well... you know makeup always has the number one spot on my list ;) 


It means the world to me that you all read this and support me through this journey. I promise I'll be back soon with more videos, so don't leave me just yet ;) I love each and every one of you and I hope you all have started 2018 better and stronger than ever! It's been tough for me but having you all as my support system means more than you know, and it's only getting better from here :) 



Battleforbeauty <3 


Briogeo Hair Care: Worth the Money?


I have to admit... I've never really been that into hair care, solely because I always got my hair done. Throughout middle school and high school I have had the wonderful Ms. Mari and Samira working to do my relaxers, my extensions, my keratin treatments, and even bi-weekly washing and styling! I have truly been blessed with the greatest, which is making the move to Vegas that much harder because I refuse to let anyone else touch this hair!

That being said, I've been exploring different hair products that will work with my keratin treated hair number one, and two, my hair has reacted much differently out here which I'm attributing to the dry air (and the fact I don't have extensions anymore... boo). I recently came across Briogeo and decided to try out a few of their products to see if I enjoyed them, and if I did I would go back and buy more.


Briogeo Repair Don't Despair Deep Conditioning Mask

I fell in love with this product the first time I tried it. I actually had two free samples of this from a Sephora purchase and somehow never used them. I decided one day to try it out because my hair desperately needed a good, deep conditioning. My hair has never felt so soft when I did my hair myself than when I used this product. 

After I blow dried my hair, it instantly looked silky and soft. The ends of my hair often feel brittle because I [had] a ton of split ends, but even with this deep conditioning mask, my hair felt so smooth and looked very hydrated and healthy. 


Briogeo Rosarco Oil

The main reason I bought this was for the ends of my hair. Ms. Mari came to Vegas (a second time) to fix my hair up for me and to help, she trimmed off my split ends. I didn't want anymore to break off so I have been keeping my ends hydrated every other 3-4 days with this oil and it has been a dream. It is non-greasy and adds in the perfect amount of shine and hydration to the ends of my hair.

While I cannot tell if my ends aren't splitting as much or my hair is staying stronger because of this product, that isn't necessarily my goal. I just want to do anything to keep them looking nice and hydrated and this works for me. Fingers crossed it stops my breakage though! 


After using these two products, there are a couple more I want to try, including these few:

Briogeo Scalp Revival Charcoal + Coconut Oil Micro-Exfoliating Shampoo

Briogeo Scalp Revival Charcoal + Tea Tree Scalp Treatment

Briogeo Rosarco Milk Reparative Leave-In Conditioning Spray

Briogeo Rosarco Blow Dry Perfection Heat Protectant Créme


I will be picking these up over the course of time and coming back to you all with my thoughts, but so far I am more than optimistic. 


I'm a huge fan of Briogeo, not just because of how well their products work for me and are sulfate free for keratin treated hair, but they are affordable as well. Their prices are a bit higher than drug store, but also quite lower/semi- on par with salon brands. Not to mention they're gluten free and cruelty free as well.


My final recommendation: check them out. There are tons and tons of amazing hair care brands out there to try and I think I found a great one for the first time that's not directly from the salon (sorry Pureology, you're just getting too expensive for me).



Battleforbeauty <3 






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Easy Holiday Makeup Look


This may be coming a little late for some of you, but my Youtube subscribers got the first looks at this one ;) Holiday season is literally the best time of year for makeup, whether it be with sales or all the looks you can experiment with. This is the best time of year to play with color, glitter and anything bold. 

However, some of us simply don't have the time to be experimenting with lengthy, detailed holiday makeup looks while we're rushing to get back from work or class and head out to a party. That being said, I wanted to show you guys that holiday makeup can be both easy, time saving and FUN.


Check out my video down below on my easy holiday makeup look and tag me in any looks you decide to re-create :) 

Products mentioned:

Jaclyn Hill x Morphe Palette

Stila Magnificent Metals Glitter and Glow Liquid Shadows: Gold Goddess

L'Oreal Voluminous Lash Paradise

Lilly Lashes: Opulence

Colourpop x Iluvsarahii Matte Liquid Lip: "Mamacita" 



battleforbeauty <3 






8 Tips to Make You Feel More Confident Daily!


You have three exams today. You studied until 3 AM and the only thing you ate the day before was, well... coffee. And more coffee. You wake up at 7 AM and just don't have the energy to get out of bed. But you do and you feel like crap for the day.


We all have those days that we roll out of bed and don't feel very confident with ourselves. We don't have time to shower, need to wax our brows but can't find time, haven't shaved in weeks, anything!


Here are 8 of my favorite small things you can do to make you feel confident and ready to take on the day instantly!


1. Bold Lip Color


This is number 1 for a great reason. Bold lips = bold you! A powerful lip color shows that you are confident and you are powerful! Even if you're feeling bad that one day, go ahead and throw on that red, bright pink, purple, black, anything! Bold lips are confident and sexy, so rock it! 


2. Dry Shampoo/shampoo substitute


I know the miracles that can happen from dry shampoo for you ladies that need to wash your hair everyday. Sometimes it takes too much time, so spray on some dry shampoo in the morning, throw your hair in a cute messy bun and head out for the day. You'll feel MUCH more confident without that greasy hair in your way! I also recently found out about shampoo and conditioner substitutes. Not exactly sure if they work, but here is one I recently received from my mom if you're interested in looking more into them. (if it comes from my mom, I know it's good.)


3. Mascara


We ALL know what a good set of lashes can do for your look! One coat of mascara instantly attracts attention to your eyes, makes you look more awake and feel ready for the day. You don't need a full face of makeup to feel confident, you just need some mascara! It only takes a minute to throw on a coat and head out for your day.


4. Perfume


A perfume that's either fresh or citrusy is my go-to for waking me up in the morning. If you are rushed and had to skip your morning shower, or worked out and didn't have time to get ready before class (talking to all the college athletes out there), a nice light perfume can give you that boost of "smell-good" so you won't have to worry if you missed out on deodorant for the morning.


5. Concealer


Under eye bags and dark circles are a dead giveaway of lack of sleep and stress. A good coverage concealer instantly brightens your face and you won't have to worry about the "wow you look tired today" comments. My two favorite high-end concealers are the Tarte Shape Tape for a full-coverage concealer and the Nars Radiant Creamy Concealer for a medium to full-coverage look. If you're looking to go drug-store, you can't go wrong with the Maybelline Instant Age Rewind Concealer or the LA Girl Pro Concealer


6. Throw on Your Brightest T-Shirt!


Wearing bright colors makes you feel brighter instantly according to color studies. Neon colors especially! Bright colors ensue a bright attitude and we'll make sure your confidence shows through regardless of how your morning went. Heading into the winter months and don't want to be too bright? Incorporate a pop of color like reds, greens or royal blues into your wardrobe to fit better with the season. 


7. Athleisure


With this rising trend, it's acceptable to wear your athletic clothes, anywhere! They're increasingly cute as well. Throw on your most comfortable leggings with your brightest sweatshirt and you'll feel comfortable but fashionable as well. Take it up a notch and pair your athleisure with your best pair of sneakers so if you're on your feet for a while, they won't feel tired either. 


8. Have you had your nails done lately?


Getting your nails done can instantly have a great feeling affect! Pick a day to pamper yourself and you'll leave feeling refreshed and comfortable with a new set of shellac!





Battleforbeauty <3








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